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Nobody wins from this misery.

We open up to people for one main reason. We open up to someone just so there would be someone who would know the crap you’re going through. we open up to that someone, with the blindest yet strongest hope that they wont leave us. That they’ll stay with us for one day longer. So we tell them things and hope that they’ll be the ones who actually stick around.

I tried being stronger. Tried being absolutely bulletproof. Tried to be everything I told myself I would be. But sometimes it’s just too hard and all you end up doing is the one thing you promised yourself you wouldn’t do. And that’s crumble and sit in a corner and feel like you’re completely alone in this world. I want to stop feeling like this. Helpless and hidden in the depths of my cave.

I want you to stay. I want you to stay cause you’re probably the only one I trust in this place. I need you to stay, for my own selfish reasons.

 

(This feels incomplete.)

 

Yours truly,

Painted Shadow

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Undone.

How do you know when to trust someone? How do you know when its the right time to let that person in on your secrets? Your lies and scars? When is it considered safe to trust them? Do you jump in, heart first? And hope to God they are as genuine as they seem or say? Or do you lock yourself in and tell no one of how you really feel, cause in the end you know, you can’t really let anyone in. Should you wait for the right time? And how will you know when that time is? How do you tell if a person is trustworthy or just like the rest of them? Why is it so hard for us to let anyone in? what are we really afraid of? Getting hurt? Being rejected? How do you stop yourself from falling off a bridge after you’ve already jumped?  If we don’t let anyone in cause we’re too scared to face those fears, will we ever learn to trust anyone?

Heres my answers Jump in. Straight in. And face everything that comes your way, cause in the end, if you don’t learn to trust someone, who would you really have to talk to? To lean on or cry to? At the end of the day, isn’t that all we really want? Eventually,we learn from our mistakes, and knowing who to trust and who not to, becomes easier. And then you realise, you’re not that scared anymore. and suddenly, everything you been through in beginning, the hurt, the rejection; suddenly, it all seems worth it. And you’re stronger. A better person.

 

Yours truly,

Painted Shadow