If I was to step in to the sun, my skin would flake and peel off. I’ll slowly disintegrate into nothing. I’d burn until nothing was left.
If i was to catch the sunset with my eyes or if the warm soft rays hit my skin,I’d fall in to a deep oblivion. I’d be falling and falling in to a deep well that has no end. If I was to breathe the same air that I have been for the past 5 years, my insides would spill out. My insides will be my outside and vice versa.
If I was to run and run and just keep running with no shoes on my already blistered feet. And noone barking at my heels, I’d be breathless. I’d be a spirit. I’d be completely free. Free from you. Free from him and you. Free from everything.
So after I’ve felt the heat of a sunrise on my ribs and the warmth of a sunset on my eyelashes, and only after I’ve breathed the cleanest air, only then will I be able to run. I’ll be able to run leaving my footprints on the sand and not bothering about the waves washing them clean, erasing my mere existence. The only proof of my existence will be erased. Instead, I’ll just keep running. At least it’ll keep me happy.
Picture this : You have two lucky golden coins. And even if you don’t believe in luck, I want you to, just for a second, picture you’re holding two precious things in your life. Now imagine you’re running. running at lightning speed and everything is just a blur. A blend of colours and shapes racing past you, and you can’t stop running. So whatever happens you MUST keep running.
And as you start running, your palms get sweaty, and one of the coins slips between your fingers and falls off. You can’t even stop to pick it up, so all you can do is run. You keep running, with tears streaming down your cheeks. Now all you have left is that one golden coin,and you would do anything to protect your only gold coin. So naturally, after losing your first coin, your first instinct will be to protect your second coin. Like a mother protects her infant, you’ll hold the coin close to your heart. You can’t let it slip away and fall. So you start looking for the first signs of trouble and danger. You’ll be paranoid. and you’ll try your best to extinguish the flame before it burns you completely. Cause right now, you just cant afford to lose something else in your life. So even if your strong. your knees will start to get weaker. But you must keep running.