I’ve Told You Now.

Maybe this is karma

maybe this is nature's way of

holding a big 'Fuck You'  board for me.

So this is most likely karma

for ripping that boy's heart out.

The first boy who showed you love,

The first boy who could have loved you.

One day, you suddenly decided you needed to move on,

and you ripped his heart out the following night

So maybe this is karma

for destroying all that you deserved

for destroying that sweet

innocent heart that wanted nothing more

than to be loved by you.

And you did for a while,

My god, you loved him

with everything you had in you.

But none of it mattered

because you ripped his

fucking heart out.

So the love letters,

and the kisses

and the dried red rose from your first valentines together,

that still sits on your table;

none of those mattered anymore

because you did the one thing you shouldn't have done,

You stuck your hand right in to his chest

and clutched his beating heart around your frozen fist

And you didnt even stop to breathe

or think about it,

You clenched your fist, beating heart and everything

tighter and tighter.

The throbbing beating heart pounded against the concrete walls

of your fingers and palms

trying to break free from this new prison.

That used to be a palace;

A home for this beating pounding warm heart.

Clenched fist and hammering heart,

you pulled your hand right back out

from his quivering body

and you didn't even blink.

You destroyed him

and you didn't even blink.

So, this is your karma

This is how you get to feel

This is your karma.