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Nobody wins from this misery.

We open up to people for one main reason. We open up to someone just so there would be someone who would know the crap you’re going through. we open up to that someone, with the blindest yet strongest hope that they wont leave us. That they’ll stay with us for one day longer. So we tell them things and hope that they’ll be the ones who actually stick around.

I tried being stronger. Tried being absolutely bulletproof. Tried to be everything I told myself I would be. But sometimes it’s just too hard and all you end up doing is the one thing you promised yourself you wouldn’t do. And that’s crumble and sit in a corner and feel like you’re completely alone in this world. I want to stop feeling like this. Helpless and hidden in the depths of my cave.

I want you to stay. I want you to stay cause you’re probably the only one I trust in this place. I need you to stay, for my own selfish reasons.


(This feels incomplete.)


Yours truly,

Painted Shadow



I stare at walls hoping that something would guide me to another dimension where everything makes sense. I take life as it comes. I reside in which is now known to be the fastest growing city in the Middle East, Dubai. Surrounded by fake greenery and dusty air, I long for rain. I long for rain to drench my very being, untill i feel nothing but clean and revived. I dream of happy things and i know for certain that Peter pan and pixies and fairies and Santa exists. I know. Because theres no point in not believing. Im a child. I am a grain of sand. I am a speckle of dust in this polluted world. I am a spirit roaming the end of the earth, trying to find that wall. (Read the page Painted shadow for details)

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